its been at least a month since i update i just dont want to get into it my dog died. R.I.P. Nutmeg she passed away in the vets office around 10:30 this morning.

OMFG LIVE JOURNAL DIDNT REMEMBER MY UPDATE ON THE PLAY BY PLAY I SPENT 5 HOURS ON THAT DAMN THING AND IT LOST IT CAUSE THEY ARE DOING MAINTINANCE DAMN IT!

4 days i was happy and then she took it all away

ive heard why she did it and i cant believe it

was she so shallow to care about what other people thought?

was i so nieve to think this wouldnt happen again?

4 times before this had happened,

but i thought this time was different,

i was wrong.

was a person i considered a friend heartless enough to break us up?

unfortunatly the answer is yes

she doesnt know how bad she hurt me

now i sit and listen to disturbed trying to forget my problems

like i do every time something happens to me

acting like i dont care even when my friends want to help

i push them away not wanting to think about it

when talking is the only thing that helps.

how long has it been since i was happy?

how long will it be til i am happy again?

all i know is that for 4 days. 4 days!

i was happy.




well this is definatly happening to several ppl right now. and that was just something i came up with it doesnt say exactly what i want to say but i tried to keep peoples names out of it. and just a note to people who care i am going to be antisocial for a while.

this update is on foot ball Go Panthers and the Steelers have already won.


Panthers get a touchdown to Smith pending a penalty the peanalty was illegal contact:defense: kick is good Panthers lead 7-0 14:05 left in the first

Bears: 3 and out, poor punt panthers start at chicago 36

Panthers:3 and out panters punt it into endzone bears start at own 20

Bears:3 and out panthers start at own 34

Panthers: get first down then punt bears start inside own 10

Bears: thomas jones first down. panthers penalty (pass interference) bears first down. first down pass to thomas jones. bears fumble (bears chalenge the fumble)(bears win chalenge) penalty (defence 5 yards) bears punt, 13 yard punt

Panthers: 1st down. long pass to Smith first and goal.


END OF FIRST QUARTER

Panthers: 4th and goal- Kasay 20 yrd fg. 10-0 14:57 left in 2nd quarter

Bears: start on own 31 false start (5 yards) 2nd and 15. 3 and out panthers start on own 28

Panthers: start on own 28. 1st down. 1st down to carter. delhomme intercepted

Bears: start at own 30. 3 and out

panthers: start at own 40. Deshauwn Foster 1st down.Deshauwn Foster another first down. Kasay 38 yd. fg 13-0 6:25 left in 2nd.

Bears: start on own 33. Barian 1st down. Muhammed 1st down.Barian 1st down. 1st and goal on the 6. (Chicago 1st charged Time out) 4th and goal inside the one

2 MINUTE WARNING

Bears: 4th and goal inside the 1. Touchdown Bears 1:57 13-7 left in 2nd quarter.

Panthers: start at own 30. (false start 5 yd penalty) 2nd and 12.( offsides 5 yd penalty) 2nd and 7. 1st down (false start 5 yd penalty) 1st and 15. 1st down to Steve Smith. Time Out Panthers 2nd charged time out. Goings 1st down. 1st down Proehl. John Kasay 39 yd fg 16-7 panthers at the half



3rd QUARTER

Bears: Chigago several first downs(missed it cause i was eating). (5 yard penalty 1st and 10). marion catch 1st and Goal bears. TD bears 16-14 11:21 left in 3rd.

panthers:1st down smith.(foster out {ankle}) 1st down Proehl. panthers punt

Bears: start inside the 10. (false start half the distance to the goal)bears punt

Carolina: start at own 44. Smith 1st down. Smith TD. 23-14 2:07 left in 3rd

Bears: start at the 34. Jones 1st down.Gaines 1st down. end of 3rd quarter

START OF 4TH QUARTER

Bears: 1st down. muhammed catch for 1st and goal.(Carolina challenging ruling on the field that it is a bears touchdown)Carolina wins the challenge (15 yard facemask half the distance to the goal) touch down bears 23-21 12:23 left in the 4th

Panthers: start at own 38. 1st down Proehl.smith 1st down run. Goings 1st down. TD Mangum 29-21 8:04 left in the 4th.

Bears: start at own 20.3 and out.

Panthers: start at own 35. 3 and out

Bears: start at own 12. 1st down jones.(5 yd penalty) 1st down.5 yd penalty 1st down.Panther interception
panthers 8 yd run

2:00 warning

Panthers: 3 and out

Bears: start at own 20. 1st down Muhammed. 4th and two is NO GOOD PANTHERS GET THE BALL!

Panthers: PANTHERS KNEEL AND WIN THE GAME HELL YES THE PANTHERS WON


well i spent a whole update with play by play lol i will probably do this when the panthers are in seatlle.

its been a month since i last updated lol and a lot of stuff has happened...i got an IOU for an X-BOX 360 for Christmas i went to the E.R. on teh 26 because i had an infected thumb where the infection started running up my arm.i broke a small part of my nose a few days later when i was takled by justin furgueson(i have now fcking clue how to spell his last name lol)gone back to school (I HATE EARTH SCIENCE WITH AKER. and 2 days ago i started going out with Ruta Stallard. my month has been great

READ THIS WHOLE THING. IT'S SO DANG TRUE* 1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you. 2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way. 3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you. 4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you. 5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep. 6. You mean the world to someone. 7. If not for you, someone may not be living. 8. You are special and unique. 9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you. 10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it. 11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world. 12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it. 13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks. 14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know. 15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great. Add this as a comment to ten of your friends tonight and at midnight your true love will find you. Something good will happen to you at 2:25 tomorrow. Get ready for the biggest shock of your life. Whoever breaks this chain letter will be cursed with 10 relationship problems for the next ten years tag ur it!! this is so scary!!! send this to 15 ppl in the next 143 min. and then press F6 and your crushes name will appear in big letters!! it is so scary because it works.... but if you break the chain.. you will be cursed w/ relationship problem"







alright someone put this on my journal as a comment in case you didnt know i hate chain letters dont put them on here.






ok my actual update this is our 2nd straight snow day and its awsome except there is no one to talk to and nothing to doso im getting bored oh well


Go Virginia Tech in their bowl

1st block: Ancient History : Giles
2nd block: Earth Science : Aker
3rd block: Spanish 3 : Lowe
4th block: Advanced English : Lusk


tell me if you have any classes with me

Liberate-Disturbed
Liberate your mind
You motherfucker, you're so narrow-minded
So narrow-minded
Liberate your mind
Now motherfucker, will you liberate your mind
This time

Bold motherfucker
Don't limit your mind
Can't you see that the pace
Has fallen behind
All the hate in your heart
Will be leaving you blind
So bold motherfucker
Don't you limit your mind
This time

Waiting, for your modern messiah
To take away all the hatred
That darkens the light in your eye
Still awaiting. I

"Out of Zion shall come forth a law
And the word of the Lord from Jerusalem
Nation shall not raise sword against nation
And they shall not learn war anymore
For the mouth of the Lord hath spoken"

Waiting, for your modern messiah
To take away all the hatred
That darkens the light in your eye
Still awaiting.




Stricken-Disturbed

You walk on like a woman in suffering
Won't even bother now to tell me why
You come alone, letting all of us savor the moment
Leaving me broken another time
You come on like a bloodstained hurricane
Leave me alone, let me be this time
You carry on like a holy man pushing redemption
I don't want to mention, the reason I know

That I am stricken and can't let you go
When the heart is cold, there's no hope, and we know
That I am crippled by all that you've done
Into the abyss will I run

You don't know what your power has done to me
I want to know if I'll heal inside
I can't go on with a holocaust about to happen
Seeing you laughing another time
You'll never know how your face has haunted me
My very soul has to bleed this time
Another hole in the wall of my inner defenses
Leaving me breathless, the reason I know

That I am stricken and can't let you go
When the heart is cold, there's no hope, and we know
That I am crippled by all that you've done
Into the abyss will I run

Into the abyss will I run

You walk on like a woman in suffering
Won't even bother now to tell me why
You come alone, letting all of us savor the moment
Leaving me broken another time
You come on like a bloodstained hurricane
Leave me alone, let me be this time
You carry on like a holy man pushing redemption
I don't want to mention, the reason I know

That I am stricken and can't let you go
When the heart is cold, there's no hope, and we know
That I am crippled by all that you've done
Into the abyss will I run

Into the abyss will I run
I can't let you go
Yes I am stricken and can't let you go



I'm Alive - Disturbed


Never again will I be dishonored
And never again will I be reminded
Of living within the world of the jaded
They kill inspiration
It's my obligation
To never again, allow this to happen
Where do I begin?
The choices are endless
Denying the sin
My art, my redemption
I carry the torch of my fathers before me

The thing I treasure the most in life cannot be taken away
There will never be a reason why I will surrender to your advice
To change myself, I'd rather die
Lonely, we'll not understand
I won't make the greatest sacrifice
You can't predict where the outcome lies
You'll never take me alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive

Change, again, cannot be considered
I rage again, dispelling my anger
Where do I begin?
The choices are endless
My art, my redemption, my only salvation
I carry the gift that I have been blessed with
My soul is adrift in oceans of madness
Repairing the rift that you have created
I am not alone, brothers give me your arms now

The thing I treasure the most in life cannot be taken away
There will never be a reason why I will surrender to your advice
To change myself, I'd rather die
Lonely, we'll not understand
I won't make the greatest sacrifice
You can't predict where the outcome lies
You'll never take me alive

I'm no slave
Are you feeling brave?
Or have you gone out of your mind?
No more games
It won't feel the same
If I hold my anger inside
There's no meaning
My soul is bleeding
I've had enough of your kind
One suggestion, use your discretion
Before you label me blind

The thing I treasure the most in life cannot be taken away
There will never be a reason why I will surrender to your advice
To change myself, I'd rather die
Lonely, we'll not understand
I won't make the greatest sacrifice
You can't predict where the outcome lies
You'll never take me alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive





Guarded - Disturbed


Guarding yourself from the love of another
Left you with nothing tonight
Why does it sound like the devil is laughing
Leaving me haunted tonight
You did decide

Now I want you, when you're gone, and now it's like
You're holding something just in front of me
Well then, I can't allow this to become another
One of those times that I'm left in the cold, dead
There's no compromise
Just another tie
I know I need to sever

Guarding yourself from the love of another
Left you with nothing tonight
Why does it sound like the devil is laughing
Leaving me haunted tonight
You did decide

Ever haunted, by the trappings of this life
Sweet redemption, just in front of me
Well now, it seems once again that I've lost another
One of the one's that have broke through the wall
Damned
Fate won't compromise
I have sold my soul,
And now the devil's laughing
You did decide

You were bold and strong, and ready to begin your life
All for nothing, you were sacrificed
You began alone, and so it will be when you die
All for nothing, will you be remembered?
You did decide

Guarding yourself from the love of another
Left you with nothing tonight
So now you know why the devil is laughing
He left you with nothing tonight
You did decide





10,000 Fists - Disturbed


Surviver
Surviver

One more goddamn day when I know what I want
And my want will be considered tonight, considered tonight
Just another day when all that I want
Will mark me as a sinner tonight, I'm a sinner tonight, yeah

[Chorus]
People can no longer cover their eyes
If this disturbs you then walk away
You will remember the night you were struck by the sight of
Ten Thousand fists in air

Power un-restrained dead on the mark
Is what we will deliver tonight, deliver tonight
Pleasure fused with pain this triumph of the soul
will make you shiver tonight, will make you shiver tonight, yeah

[Chorus]
People can no longer cover their eyes
If this disturbs you then walk away
You will remember the night you were struck by the sight of
Ten Thousand fists in air

We are the ones that will open your mind
Leave the weak and the haunted behind [4x]

[Chorus]
People can no longer cover their eyes
If this disturbs you then walk away
You will remember the night you were struck by the sight of
Ten Thousand fists in air

Ten Thousand fists in the air
Ten Thousand fists in the air





Pain - Jimmy Eat World


I don't feel the way I've ever felt. I know. I'm gonna smile and not get worried. I try but it shows. Anyone can make what I have built. And better now Anyone can find the same white pills. It takes my pain away. It's a lie. A kiss with opened eyes. And she's not breathing back. Anything but bother me. (It takes my pain away) Never mind these are horrid times. Oh oh oh I can't let it bother me. I never thought I'd walk away from you. I did. But it's a false sense of accomplishment. Every time I quit Anyone can see my every flaw. It isn't hard. Anyone can say they're above this all. It takes my pain away. It's a lie. A kiss with opened eyes. And she's not breathing back. Anything but bother me. (It takes my pain away) Never mind these are horrid times. Oh oh oh I can't let it bother me. I can't let it bother me. It takes my pain away. It's a lie. A kiss with opened eyes. And she's not breathing back. Anything but bother me. (It takes my pain away) Never mind these are horrid times. Oh oh oh I can't let it bother me
takes my pain x3
takes my pain away








those r just some of my favorite songs. now i could update about my life im sure some of you would like to know exactly what happened and if you just want to find out about DO NOT comment because i will not reply.well i am so bored right now i am watching the MAC championship Akron(6-5) vs. Northern Illinois(7-4) and one dude just like broke his arm when he got leveled.and GO VT saturday in the ACC championship.
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its 1:22 in the morning and i am not tired at all really i am just watching star wars episode 3 and in a while go play video games i am so glad we dont have school tomorrow. yoda kicks clone-trooper ass lol.wow i really have nothing more to update about.

just gettin ready for the TEch game to start GO TECH